in her hands

spirit said draw and so i drew and people liked it and wanted to buy it and then i started trying to think of ways to market it. so busy brain clicked on . . . prints, t-shirts, mugs, earrings, portraits, website. got dizzy, got a big headache, got real cranky, had to stay in bed and didn't draw at all. then i tried to draw, no actually i tried to direct the energy and choose the paper and the colors. stuff came out on the paper but it wasn't beautiful. it wasn't recognizable as related to what had come before so i stopped and tried some more on the same page. a jumbled mess of lines with some figures and a profile. and spirit said stop, go lay down again cause all i said was "draw" when u asked "what will i do?". let go and let me do the rest.

that's what i get for thinking too hard, too much. when i got up i just listened and purple paper appeared and told me not to worry because it is in her hands.

c - me

what's up now? - the goddesses

my girls and I have been dancing with the luminaires collective at my church - no actually my spiritual center, 'cause we are more than a little different from church as i have known it previously. spring performances were scheduled for mother's and father's days to celebrate the sacred feminine and masculine in all of us. so we started meeting before we danced to really address who we are as people, women, girls, all god-expressed. in the course of all this shacquel our directress brought in her vision board and spoke about one of the pictures she'd selected because she was looking for herself as a goddess. so i asked her for a sheet of paper and she went home with one. herself as a goddess. bic pen on copy paper, dots and swirls. she made copies, gave them out. posted one in the house and then it was on. hers started talking to her like mine had been for a minute. the first two are attached to one of my earliest posts and they used to talk to me all the time when they were hanging in my house - mostly about getting out and seeing the world until i entered them in a show. one sold immediately and the other is out and about talking to other folks for now. four more goddesses came fast and furious - air, earth, water and fire. up on the walls at Center Vibe. now goddesses had been appearing for years on the borders of my meeting agendas, notes, backs of receipts, and on paper plates but never before like this. the first full blown one came through in Chad's sketchbook this summer. luckily i snagged a few xerox copies before the original got done in by sharpie blots from another page. a color copy of the colored copy one "heart & mind" hangs in the window above my drafting table presiding over the new ladies and gentelmen emerging everyday. the ladies above came thru as representatives of some of my fellow luminaires shortly after brief conversations with each one. a while back my friend ratasha had described the butterflies that appeared on a painted tabletop i created for her as "a dialogue with the divine". my work process feels like that all the time now and it is wonderful! if you are interested in a portrait of yourself as God/Goddess expressed contact me at cmcelvane@yahoo.com $70. will get you a color reading and a 9"x12" hand drawn portrait, suitable for framing within 2 weeks.

with gratitude, peace and love,

Catherine